fucking tired of people fucking around endless broken promises.....it makes it really hard to keep mines.....UGH.....!!!

I always say I hate school and work...but thats not always true. Looking at the whole picture I'm glad that I'm doing something with my life and self sufficient. My dad cares in his way by making sure i get my education. Work has been great and everyone has been so supportive. Since I stopped caring about insignificant people it has been great, I finally realized they are not woth the time or thought.

Victoria 's day was soooo....fun. There is still so much food left and the fireworks where sooooo trippy. Anna and i swore that our legs where going to fall off on the walk home and Jon came to the realization that cotton candy breaks you down...hahah

And finally all I can say about Wayne's beer bong is you guys are crazy and good times...

I find that my life is either truly dull or infested with drama and this shit hit the fan HARD! During those times I learn the most.  I realize who people really are when they are regarding me and this last time it hit me that there are friends who are completely selfless when you need them. They don't need anything from other than your love inreturn. They do not relish your drama, but instead sympathize with you through it (Susan). Others seem to resemble savage wild dogs and hone in on you while you're weak. They have the intention to tear you limb form limb and infest everyone you hold dear, kind of like leporsy. It a wonderful feeling to know fully that I am a better person than that and it's even better knowing that Wayne has always known that of me.

 Xanga is fucked sometimes, after my last post some bitch i don't even know decides to shove her fat foot into my business...

Seems like quite a few losers seem to have the same idea.  Maybe they should invest some time out of their otherwise pathetic lives and make something of themselves, instead of freeloading everything from money to drama off their friends.

KNOW WHO YOU'RE FRIENDS ARE AND WHO YOU CAN REALLY TRUST. AND   

Nothing feels the same as when you know you've helped someone or when they tell you "hey, thanks for listening. I feel alot better." But what happens when you need someone to listen to you? What happens when you can't count on your family because it's something they won't be able to understand or when you don't know which of your friends to turn to? Why does it feel like I can understand everyone else's troubles but my own. Why do I feel so helpless in my own life. Some days I feel like an actress playing a role that feel so alien to me, like a bystander witnessing another persons demise.    

Damn, Harry Potter's Bertie Bott's every flavoured jelly beans are the craziest jelly beans ever!!!!!!!!!!  If anyone out there want to add some variety to the life; pick up a box at your local candy store.  They're about $5 a box but the Russian Roulettesque excitment is all worth it. Wayne and I tried a box last night and they were CRAZY! I mean they are nail bitting-crazy.....The one flavour that I will never touch again is sardine, it actually tastes like you're licking the scales of a stinky sardine...And how the hell they get the damp basement taste of dirt into the bean is beyond my imagination.....i will say no more about these little candies for the sake of ruining it for you dare devils out there.

To my dear little ANNAR, please don't give up.....You are almost at the finish line....Just jump this last hurdle and we can work it out when you come home. If you happen to have any spare time remember to SLEEP for goodness sake and if you need me I'm just a phone call away.

Wayne and I have EIGHT more days till we pack our swimsuits and sunglasses and head to Cuba!!! I'm soooooooo excited!!!!!!!! YAYAYYAYAY!!!!!!! Annar, I will try my best to smuggle you back a HOT CUBAN LOVER/SLAVE (I'll make sure he has a university degree so all you're school troubles will be gone).......I think it's a brilliant plan if i do say so myself.......muAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!  I can't wait and the days seem to go by in slow motion ....... oh well .....CUBA? SI ! Hasta la vista....